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Update on Brian (Me)
Submitted by BLG2319 on Sun, 02/10/2008 - 22:59.Sorry I did not respond before now to the comments my last entry generated. Frankly, the tone of my blog was much darker than I had anticipated. It was rightfully met with concern from bill, reido, and Lu. It even concerned me. Like, maybe I am not much better off than I was before. Maybe I'm not. I just don't care as much.
I plan to go back to my doctor soon and see about chaning my meds. He has me on 20 mg of Lexapro a day. Some days I feel really good, which is more than I could say before. I have felt so bad for so long I am not sure I know what normal is or if I have ever experienced it. I do know for a short time my doc switched me to Cymbalta. Needless to say it did not go well. That's why I am reluctant to try anything else.
Postcards From the Edge
Submitted by BLG2319 on Wed, 01/23/2008 - 22:58. UpdateHello Everyone,
I just finished reading my last blog entry from last May. I was surprised at how well written it was. I can remember how a proud I was of it. How brutally honest I felt I was being while writing it. I just knew a new chapter was starting in my life. Let's just say I had no idea.
I have been suffering from panic attacks for a few years. I reasoned with myself that they could be ignored since they only occurred ever so often. Well, that every once and awhile became nearly everyday last summer. I literally felt terrible all the time. I would not allow myself to recognize the symptoms but clearly I was beginning to suffer from clinical depression.
On The Other Side
Submitted by BLG2319 on Fri, 05/11/2007 - 22:49.I hope you all will allow me to exercise a little self-indulgence. Going on two years ago a “came out” here at Faith Commons. A secret I had been holding onto all my life was finally confessed. I thought I would take a few moments to share where I am today with this part of my life.
Living on Purpose
Submitted by BLG2319 on Fri, 04/27/2007 - 23:32.It has been awhile since I wrote anything. Haven't had much to say. That is how it is with me. I usually don't have anthing to say until I have reached another "dark night of the soul". So here I am again, sitting in front of my computer talking to the faceless masses. Saying things I am unable to share with the people in my real life.
It happened one day some two plus years ago. I stopped believing in God. I remember feeling nihilistic dread mixed with overwhelming joy. Joy for not having to answer to the angry man in the sky anymore. Dread for facing the reality for the first time that this world just might be completely meaningless.
THE TIMES THEY ARE A CHANGING!
Submitted by BLG2319 on Sun, 02/11/2007 - 00:20.A while back I wrote a post bemoaning the adding of an instrumental service at what is the largest Church of Christ in America. My take was the move was cynical in nature, designed to help them meet their bottomline rather than encourage people to grow spiritually. I am still not sure that there is a spiritual reason for doing it. That said...
I went to the new service last night. Unfortunately I was not able to stay for the whole thing because my son felt like being one and a half-year-old rather than a well mannered pew sitter, but for the part I did see I have to say I was stunned. Not by the presentation mind you. That was rather uninspired if you ask me, but the overwhelming emotional response. The enthusiasm was infectous. I was also expecting a relatively small crowd. Instead it was standing room only. It was as if the Israelites were being freed from Egypt all over again. I am having a hard time processing it really.
Thoughts on "Doogie" and other things
Submitted by BLG2319 on Sat, 11/04/2006 - 23:25. miscellanyWhen I was growing up back in the 80s and early 90s I thought I was pretty smart. I could not wait to be an adult. I think that is why I became a huge fan of "Doogie Houser M.D.". There was something about a 16-year-old genius doctor acting most of the time like an adult that appealled to me. Of course I knew I was no genius so I was destined to take a much longer road. But a boy could dream right?
Just Sad Really...
Submitted by BLG2319 on Fri, 11/03/2006 - 12:07. miscellanyI found this story today:
http://www.dfw.com/mld/dfw/15815494.htm
This is my favorite part:
Quote:
The preacher believes that the Bible teaches that homosexuality is sin and abortion is murder. In one of his Hell House sketches, a "demon" tour guide performs a marriage between two men. The skit fast-forwards to a hospital room where one of the partners lies dying of AIDS."We're not saying if you have AIDS or an abortion you're going to hell," Roberts said. "There is forgiveness."
